It's my biggest issue. For fear of Rejection; Or could be the paranoia, From the schizoaffective disorder. Along with the bipolar. No reason to trust; When they all leave, or seem To judge. But then that's also my brain Fucking up. I don't talk about it much. If at all. No one cares, or understands. … Continue reading Trust
You still cross My mind; now opened. My eyes a bit Unfocused. Through the Emotions. I still hold You close. In my mind. A few blows To the head. Had me lost in time. Then I realized. I am not loved. I am the lonely One. I want for you; The sky, the sun, Moon … Continue reading Realization
Its started again. The rhyming in my head; Which I cant Comprehend. Is it a trend? Or a way To make amends; With myself I have hidden. Within the shadows of oblivion. As I slowly loose my grip. Now its changing. Let the shifting begin, As a way to ascend. To a higher thought process, … Continue reading Again
Almost drowned in the river Lethe, memories twisting and haunting me soul remembering instead of fading to the forgotten. I wonder now, why this is what I'm caught in. A tangled mess of past, dreams, and uncertain destiny. My soul screaming for some sort of release, or peace, shit even a cease; fire. Buried within … Continue reading Untitled Too
I see who I used to be When my eyes fall on you, I hear you speak; then Watch as you follow it through. So confused, did I leave a part Of me with you. If so what do I do, because they look so Much better behind your eyes. I'm just a distant memory … Continue reading Untitled One
In my silence. It's there you see In my silence The pain and greif In my silence I let it recede In my silence The love I never speak In my silence I'm allowed to set free In my silence Yet I still hold the belief.
Thanks for saving me from the monster I was becoming. You reflected every thing I needed to see. To remember who it is I am and what I want. I forgotten what I wanted to be, but I'm starting to remember. Though its cliche, thanks for loving the mess that was me. But now it … Continue reading Words unspoken