It's my biggest issue. For fear of Rejection; Or could be the paranoia, From the schizoaffective disorder. Along with the bipolar. No reason to trust; When they all leave, or seem To judge. But then that's also my brain Fucking up. I don't talk about it much. If at all. No one cares, or understands. … Continue reading Trust
Mirror, oh Mirror Show me everything You see. Show me everything I could be. Show me the truth We both seek. Mirror, my mirror Show me my soul Guide me tonight Remind me I'm whole. With or without Young or old Remind me Of love. Dont let me Be cold. Mirror, oh sweet mirror The … Continue reading Mirror
Eyes wide open I stare, Tho sleep Has me snared. In a warzone Of fear. Nightmares Live here. ~~~~~ Amplified versions Of reality swear, I'm awake, I'm awake. But it's too late. I'm caught in That fearscape. Once again, Everynight. Sweet lullabies Turn to screams And silent cries. Its here true fear Lies. Awake unable … Continue reading Nightmares
I let fear win, Relating to my heart And my own indecision. Never again.
Well here we go, promise I'm not too drunk to flow. Seems to help though. As i'm not sure why I'm rhyming yo. How do I tell you I was confused, abused, and delusional. How do I explain my brain ain't quite the same. I'm a bit more deranged than I claim, but crazy's always … Continue reading Feelin’
I write to you, in one of the many ways I can. So let me tell you this story of a not so far away land. A parallel life existence, where everything's switched and different. Not like "Alice" though cause this shit ain't fiction. But before I get too far off track I had to … Continue reading DREAMS
I broke my own heart; Not being honest. With the way I felt, about You.
You still cross My mind; now opened. My eyes a bit Unfocused. Through the Emotions. I still hold You close. In my mind. A few blows To the head. Had me lost in time. Then I realized. I am not loved. I am the lonely One. I want for you; The sky, the sun, Moon … Continue reading Realization
Its started again. The rhyming in my head; Which I cant Comprehend. Is it a trend? Or a way To make amends; With myself I have hidden. Within the shadows of oblivion. As I slowly loose my grip. Now its changing. Let the shifting begin, As a way to ascend. To a higher thought process, … Continue reading Again
Almost drowned in the river Lethe, memories twisting and haunting me soul remembering instead of fading to the forgotten. I wonder now, why this is what I'm caught in. A tangled mess of past, dreams, and uncertain destiny. My soul screaming for some sort of release, or peace, shit even a cease; fire. Buried within … Continue reading Untitled Too
I see who I used to be When my eyes fall on you, I hear you speak; then Watch as you follow it through. So confused, did I leave a part Of me with you. If so what do I do, because they look so Much better behind your eyes. I'm just a distant memory … Continue reading Untitled One
They called me two faced; That's not the issue. Duality's the maze, I fall in; get chained to. Minds always in a race, With the me of yesterday. I feel crazed, in a haze; Stuck between insane, And the bipolar mundane. Emotions. So many polarities, More vast than the ocean. No wonder in coastin'; I'm … Continue reading Gemini
In my silence. It's there you see In my silence The pain and greif In my silence I let it recede In my silence The love I never speak In my silence I'm allowed to set free In my silence Yet I still hold the belief.
Thanks for saving me from the monster I was becoming. You reflected every thing I needed to see. To remember who it is I am and what I want. I forgotten what I wanted to be, but I'm starting to remember. Though its cliche, thanks for loving the mess that was me. But now it … Continue reading Words unspoken
~♤~ Come now, let's chat awhile; Look beyond The dazzling smile. A heart fractured; in denial. Continuing on through this cycle. ~♡~ Deeper yet, My mind goes. Following this Sick ass flow. Down, down The rabbit hole. Not alice, But feel quite close. ~♧~ Bipolar lows, And Manic highs. Heartfelt laughs; To broken cries. As … Continue reading Mind’s Eye