Meltdown…

Kinda wanna cry,
& I don’t,
Even know why,
Damn…
Emotions gettin’,
The best of me today.
Kinda wanna die,
& I don’t,
Even know why,
Damn…
Emotions gettin’,
The best of me today.
In the;
Middle of a meltdown,
& I just wanna break away.
……
Idk;
How to feel.
Who knows,
Maybe;
Nothing’s real?
Such a sorrow,
That I conceal but,
Sometimes,
That’s just the deal.
Feelin’ bluish like teal,
These emotions peel,
To my reveal.
Seems I’m holding,
Together;
Like melted steel.
My mind’s,
Spinning wheel,
Replaying memories,
Like a camera reel.
Got me feelin’,
Ancient feelin’s,
Once concealed.
Thoughts pourin’ out,
Like cups of chamomile,
Nahh; This is not ideal.



I’m alive & I’m well,
I’m swell can’t you tell?
I’ve been making my way,
Through;
This personal hell.
Got my mind inna spell,
Insides;
Leaking out my shell.
Mmm…
I got novacaine,
In the vein;
To kill these thoughts,
Bringing pain to my brain.
I’m overworked & insane,
Alice bound by chains,
Burning up in the embers,
Of;
Flames & silent claims.
Let us switch the blame,
&;
Condemn my name.
I have every reason to be,
Happy…
But I still feel the same.
I still feel the shame,
Stuck to me like a stain.
Darkness seeps deep,
Into my mainframe,
Imbalanced;
The chemicals change,
These twisted thoughts,
Seem to rearrange.
The light was supposed,
To save me but,
I guess it never came,
It never came…
No…
All plans backfire…
All dreams perspire…
All systems haywire…
Head;
Tumbling like a dryer.
Blowing through the wind,
Like a loose flyer,
Zephyr gonna take me,
Higher; Higher.



Issa meltdown,
Breakdown,
Alabama shake down.
Eyes flooding,
Opposite of Cape Town.
My mind;
Is wide awake now,
Hold it together cause’,
I’m losin’ shape now.
I’m under water,
Face down,
&;
I got my faith down.
Prayers from the dark,
I;
Hope to be found,
Silence is,
Such a terrifying sound.
Nothing’s colder than,
No 1 being around.



Hold me now…
Cause’;
I’m bout to fall…
Hold me now…
Cause’;
I’m feelin’ so small…
Hold me now…
Cause’;
I’m against the wall…
Hold me now…
Cause’;
I’m bout to lose it all…



Hold me now…
Cause’;
I’m bout to fall…
Hold me now…
Cause’;
I’m feelin’ so small…
Hold me now…
Cause’;
I’m against the wall…
Hold me now…
Cause’;
I’m bout to lose it all…

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