4walls…

Boxed & neglected,
With sorrow detected,
Upon myself I reflected,
The dots connected…
Well…
Guess I’m stuck here,
Forever… Forever…
Can’t save myself from,
This endless weather.
I suppose I should’ve known,
Myself much better than this.
Perhaps I was never meant,
To experience bliss.
To see a life outside these,
4 walls… Is all I wish.
……
Locked;
Inside these 4 walls,
I ignore every telephone call.
I repress;
Every hurtful thing that I saw,
I’ve swallowed up all of my flaws,
They dig;
My flesh with razor sharp claws.
My wounds are bleeding,
Someone pass me the gauze,
Because;
I want to cover up how I feel.
Living in delusion,
As I mask everything that’s real.
Holding these cards,
Like I’ve never played before,
Although I know the deal.
I can’t heal;
Until I crack the seal.
This food for thought will,
Be my final meal.
I raise my head from,
It’s darkened place.
Looking inna broken mirror,
Can’t recognize my own face.
Sitting still & content letting,
My potential go to waste.
Perhaps my faith was misplaced,
Or;
Perhaps I got a taste of,
My own medicine.
Only dreams I chase,
Deep in slumber,
Gimme more melatonin.
Sleep’s the cousin of death,
&;
I’m tryna’ cure this omen.
Flyin’ under the radar,
I’mma no man.
Heart colder than,
A snowman.
Drop the needle,
On a slow jam.
Going through life,
With no plan,
At all; Whatsoever.
How you gonna try,
To rain;
On my cloudy weather?
I’m just tryin’ to get better.
I’m
just
tryin’
to
get
better.
……
Leave me be!!
Leave me…
Leave me be!!
Leave me…
To my misery,
All alone…



Leave me be!!
Leave me…
Leave me be!!
Leave me…
To my misery,
All alone…



Leave me be!!
Leave me…
Leave me be!!
Leave me…
To my misery,
All alone…

These 4 walls,
Can’t contain me,
Or can they?
These 4 walls,
Slowly compress me,
To certain dismay.
Sorry; Can’t come out,
& play; Noo… not today.
Physically enslaved,
Running through,
Seasons just like,
An anime.
Moods I display,
Move through shades,
Of what’s light & grey,
While tree’s under,
The midnight moon,
Toss & sway.
Maybe this isolation,
Is just a phase.
Maybe I’m locked in,
The inferno;
With skin set ablaze.
I’m radiating hate,
Like;
A gamma ray,
Burnin’ hotter than,
Santa Fe;
Onna sizzling,
Summer’s day.
Withering away,
Into;
Crumbled decay.
Why must this be,
The price that I pay?
Why must I,
Remain to stay,
Only;
To waste away?
……
I think it’s time…
Let’s break down,
Our walls; Together.
I think it’s time…
You know;
It’s now or never.
I think it’s time…
We stand better,
Together.
I think it’s time…
You know;
It could be now,
But;
It’s probably never.
Watch as my sanity,
Floats away like,
A feather.

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