Clown…

Come one, come all,
I welcome you to,
The shit show.
Lemme tell y’all,
Something;
You never thought,
You would know.
Clowns;
Playing distractions,
Cause’ they can’t,
Let go.
Been searching for zen,
On that ebb & flow,
But;
Lost your way,
Into the great unknown.
Finding humor within,
Sorrowful woes.
Where we go from here,
Hmm…
Only heaven knows.
……
No one cares about the clown,
They only care about the jokes,
But what about when,
The tears come falling down?
The sadness is still there,
Even when the circus has,
Already left town.
You’re scaring the kids!
Come on now, let’s see;
A smile replace that frown!
If you can’t be happy,
Then the world expects you,
To fake it.
Sometimes;
You get caught up,
And mistake it,
For a delusion,
With hopes to one day,
Be complacent,
Almost adjacent,
To your illusion.
A little bit of make-up,
Will cover those contusions.
People want positivity,
Darkened souls get sent,
Into exclusion,
All because;
No one showed you,
The correct method of fusion.
Just look;
At the time that you’re spending.
Pleasing everyone else,
Instead of;
Puzzling the pieces,
That needed mending.
Bending;
Backwards with,
Confirmation pending.
Contending;
For the attention,
Of those blending,
Into a world,
Of trend setting.
Every move you make,
Is depending,
On whether this or that,
Will lead to an unfriending.
What type;
Of message is that sending?
Don’t give up;
Just because no one,
Is comprehending.
You could pretend,
But;
What good is pretending,
When you’ve sold out,
Everything you’re defending?
It’s best;
Just to search for yourself,
Because;
The search for acceptance,
Is never ending.

You can pretend,
That everything is okay.
Tell yourself;
You’ll worry about it another day,
Until that day comes,
Then you push it away,
5 months later,
You look back and see,
That it’s all decayed.
You can throw on a face,
To cover up what,
You never had the guts to say.
Keep smiling,
When your last thread,
Is beginning to fray.
To me that’s insanity,
All you’ve managed to do,
Was invite your demons to stay.
And it’s all jokes,
Til they decide to come out & play.



You can pretend,
That everything is okay.
Tell yourself;
You’ll worry about it another day,
Until that day comes,
Then you push it away,
5 months later,
You look back and see,
That it’s all decayed.
You can throw on a face,
To cover up what,
You never had the guts to say.
Keep smiling,
When your last thread,
Is beginning to fray.
To me that’s insanity,
All you’ve managed to do,
Was invite your demons to stay.
And it’s all jokes,
Til they decide to come out & play.

This;
Bloody balloon,
Bursts;
& covers the room.
You can smell,
The impending doom,
That;
Blooms in the distance.
Gazing at the moon,
From your cocoon, tomb;
Ancient feelings consumed,
It’s something vicious.
Something demented that’s,
Made from nightmares,
With toxic fumes, they fill the air,
Fresh breath of despair,
Not that you really care,
Not that there’s much better,
You can really compare to.
Kinda;
Makes you lose your mind when,
The lies become true.
Kinda;
Makes you lose your mind when,
You’ve lost your way through.
It’s a long line between,
Far & few;
When you’re up shit’s creek,
Without a paddle and,
A sinking canoe.
Been ponderin’ life,
Yet, so confused.
Head full;
Of rage & trauma,
Infused, not amused.
You can’t handle the truth,
The truth too taboo,
Soo high;
Breath taken by the view,
Soo unaware,
That the comedown,
Will most likely kill you.
……
Paint;
Dripping down,
Your face,
Tears of a clown.
They love ya when,
The make up is on,
But;
Not when it’s gone,
Underneath the surface,
A true reflection is found.
Cried yourself a river but,
Never learned to swim,
So instead you just drown.
Confidence buried,
Six feet beneath,
The ground.
Truth is;
That smile is just,
An upside down,
Frown.
Signs of happiness,
No longer around.
Tell me;
Where’s the laugh now?

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