Wildfire…

I feel…
I feel…
I feel like,
A piece without a puzzle.
I feel like,
A dog trapped in a muzzle.
Good soul;
Drowning in the troubles,
Scrub; Scrub,
But no scrubbing bubbles,
Could ever cleanse me,
From the subtle,
Dispositions that I cuddle.
I don’t just lie in my bed,
That I’ve made.
I sleep soundly in my,
Sheets of suede.
Everytime I close my eyes,
My soul fades;
To a place no one could invade.
I’ve Imprisoned myself,
Within a dreamscape.
Or maybe my twisted reality,
Is just shifting the shapes.
Living in hell,
Dreaming of superhero capes.
Unobtainable illusions,
My psychedelic mind would create.
But was it really out of reach?
Thought about this,
As I began to impeach,
The strings binding together,
My own beliefs.
I was dancing with the devil,
Searching for inner peace.
I was consuming,
Every negative feeling,
With hopes of release.
Yeah;
I know that seems,
A little contradicted.
To my vices,
I became a slave,
That was convicted.
Damn;
Who could have predicted,
A beautiful soul,
That developed an addictive,
Personality;
That became afflicted,
By his unrestricted,
Environment.
Living care free,
Without constructive,
Requirements.
This lifestyle is too much,
I need retirement.
Not only for myself,
But because my energy,
Could become virulent.
Like a leach on society,
This depression & anxiety,
Has inspired me,
To beat the odds that,
Re-wired me.
My eyes opened wider,
The old me & new mentality,
Are separated by a divider.
Fears crawling upon me,
Like spiders.
My soul is trapped,
In the mind of a writer.
I’ll write until,
The darkness inside,
Becomes whiter.
Treading the beaten path,
Towards one that’s lighter.
I’ve faced evil,
Because;
God made me a fighter.
He set me free,
Sometimes I wish,
He would have held on,
Just a bit tighter.
But sometimes,
The best lessons,
Are learned;
When burned within,
The wildfire.

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